Logical Non-Sense
Mostly poetry, nowadays. Occasionally will write some thoughts on other things that are relevant to my interests.
Monday, December 24, 2012
Good Evening
It's dark and you're walking outside. It's a clear day but it's dark. You're not even sure if it's night time but you don't mind either way. You keep walking, trying not to notice the feeling of discomfort that is steadily growing inside you. The darkness begins to get to you and your pace quickens. You're pretty sure nothing is behind you, except maybe the darkness, but your pace gets quicker and now you're running. Maybe you heard something but you're pretty sure it's nothing, but just to be safe you keep running. You're now at full speed and breathing heavily. You're not sure how much longer you can take but you don't feel tired at all. You're in a different place now, still dark but more open; in a field, perhaps. The space puts your mind at ease and you think you see the sun so you give up on running, for now. You notice the ground you're on. It's not ground at all, it's a shaking, dark sea. In you go, down you go and you can't breath but you're not drowning. Deeper you go, as though pulled down by an anchor. The sun you thought you saw is now a trembling, shimmering ripple on the surface and now it's not even visible. You're moving through this slow navy gradient, into black. You're not sure how long you've been at it but you eventually hit rock bottom. You don't even wonder if you've died. You're sure of it. But the question plagues your mind: when? You walk through the depths so slowly that it probably takes you years just to approach the tiny strand of bottom that is distinguishable from the rest. It's an iridescent rock. At your touch it shifts. You place your entire palm on it and it winces. You see yourself now, touching the rock and behind you a long, spindly rod floats, pointed straight at your heart. You wouldn't see it, except for a single strand of light, pulled tight, that is reflected off it. In it goes, right through your back, through your skin, through your bones, through your heart and out through your chest. And the light has passed you, too; no pain. The needle proceeds to anchor against the wincing rock. The beam of light turns red and you see your body losing all its color as the red, now green, now blue, now yellow beam gives the rock every hue of you. You stand, now monochrome and look up as the sea rushes to meet you and you shoot up through its surface. You feel the warmth of the sun hard and hot on your skin. You open your eyes and focus on your ceiling. The sun is beaming through the window, diluted slightly by the white curtains. You bring up your hand, cold but full color. Good morning.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
If Not Like That
a painted circle of white on a red wall
one single drop makes its way down
and another escapes upwards defying laws
the wall is now two camps, ready for war
the wall falls and it's now the ground
and it's now massive, a red sea on two sides
and held in two colossal chains, two bridges
is the white kingdom, the wheel of towers
she stands on the tallest tower on the inner end
poised and resolute she deeply takes in thin air
she then shuts her eyes strongly and at once
widely opens them and jumps off the edge
she's shooting down as a piercing, slicing wind
the red outside the circle is tumultuous
the red inside the circle is a still, bright mirror
she can see herself, closer, drawing in
as her fingerprints find their identical double
the surface of the mirror makes way instead
to a perfectly white void, a drop on the ground
on the wall to whom gravity is now drawn
a drip from his brush opened the sea
a drop of that negative space wet and drying
dry and cracking and now a black fissure
in curious curves, a repeating echo pattern
and the towers crumble overtaken by the cracks
crashing into the churning, thirsty red waters
and his majesty sits patiently awaiting the end
sitting across from the red and white wall
and finally the white is now merely transparent
and beneath it is the lightning strike of tearing black
dead veins filling in with red, rushing in
he shuts his eyes tight and braces, leaning back
then it appears completely, the traces of black now full
the lines all linked into pulsating paths of life
the form of a hand, then of a single finger and its trails
and the white drip swells and bursts in revelation
the brush hits the ground and paint floods from it
exhausting all of the white within, withering
and the white runs wild rebuilding the fallen
as she flies towards him, both wide-eyed
one single drop makes its way down
and another escapes upwards defying laws
the wall is now two camps, ready for war
the wall falls and it's now the ground
and it's now massive, a red sea on two sides
and held in two colossal chains, two bridges
is the white kingdom, the wheel of towers
she stands on the tallest tower on the inner end
poised and resolute she deeply takes in thin air
she then shuts her eyes strongly and at once
widely opens them and jumps off the edge
she's shooting down as a piercing, slicing wind
the red outside the circle is tumultuous
the red inside the circle is a still, bright mirror
she can see herself, closer, drawing in
as her fingerprints find their identical double
the surface of the mirror makes way instead
to a perfectly white void, a drop on the ground
on the wall to whom gravity is now drawn
a drip from his brush opened the sea
a drop of that negative space wet and drying
dry and cracking and now a black fissure
in curious curves, a repeating echo pattern
and the towers crumble overtaken by the cracks
crashing into the churning, thirsty red waters
and his majesty sits patiently awaiting the end
sitting across from the red and white wall
and finally the white is now merely transparent
and beneath it is the lightning strike of tearing black
dead veins filling in with red, rushing in
he shuts his eyes tight and braces, leaning back
then it appears completely, the traces of black now full
the lines all linked into pulsating paths of life
the form of a hand, then of a single finger and its trails
and the white drip swells and bursts in revelation
the brush hits the ground and paint floods from it
exhausting all of the white within, withering
and the white runs wild rebuilding the fallen
as she flies towards him, both wide-eyed
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Painting the White Dog Black
A good stroke is in order
this midnight is incomplete
not enough and we'll be caught
too much and we'll be denounced
the dark track, the ghost exhales
an imprint of the spirit upon me
sacred ground and a thirst for sleep
the last ingredient is in the eyes
tragedy strikes with every step
the open mouth gasps in time
the wagging tail belies intent
the loose tongue hangs aloof
again a move, a false one now
who knows his plan at ease?
who sees him for what he is?
a hound like him, mercurial
pomp, steady pace, a groove
with no music, a clear rhythm
a clever spy need not hide
every move made is a mask
but what innocent purpose
what fascinating whimsy
that which has set this course
that which brings him here
the dawning sun signals us
we wait to strike, haste a mistake
the agent parades in unhindered
white dog caught at last
a sudden chilled wind
an imminent rainfall looms
and with each drop on white fur
black paws, black pavement, white puddle
and then, our folly unraveled
their duplicitous trail unveiled
the rain elsewhere discolors
a black dog dripping white discovered
and in his grasp, a surreptitious victory
and in his mouth, the stolen good
and in his step, a happy spring
and from the scene, an easy exit
[I wasn't going to post this coz I just wasn't satisfied with what I'd written and I don't like to post stuff I don't like but when I read into it I saw something I hadn't seen before and hated it a little less so here you go.]
this midnight is incomplete
not enough and we'll be caught
too much and we'll be denounced
the dark track, the ghost exhales
an imprint of the spirit upon me
sacred ground and a thirst for sleep
the last ingredient is in the eyes
tragedy strikes with every step
the open mouth gasps in time
the wagging tail belies intent
the loose tongue hangs aloof
again a move, a false one now
who knows his plan at ease?
who sees him for what he is?
a hound like him, mercurial
pomp, steady pace, a groove
with no music, a clear rhythm
a clever spy need not hide
every move made is a mask
but what innocent purpose
what fascinating whimsy
that which has set this course
that which brings him here
the dawning sun signals us
we wait to strike, haste a mistake
the agent parades in unhindered
white dog caught at last
a sudden chilled wind
an imminent rainfall looms
and with each drop on white fur
black paws, black pavement, white puddle
and then, our folly unraveled
their duplicitous trail unveiled
the rain elsewhere discolors
a black dog dripping white discovered
and in his grasp, a surreptitious victory
and in his mouth, the stolen good
and in his step, a happy spring
and from the scene, an easy exit
[I wasn't going to post this coz I just wasn't satisfied with what I'd written and I don't like to post stuff I don't like but when I read into it I saw something I hadn't seen before and hated it a little less so here you go.]
Sunday, April 29, 2012
moods
You're a cat and you see it all
in leisure you take in each step
every adventure is a smart move
and you can see more than silhouettes
when all is dark, eyeshine gleams
You're a fish and your life is a dream
nothing but a dream as you swim
in between the oars of heaven's ships
and you feel happy with others
and you swim and sink and breathe water
You're an insect and you know community
you know your place and you like it
you have every friend you need
and you die inconsequentially at a hand
that carries a vast history
You're a man and you know grief
the sorrow that separates you from them
is that you know that what separates you
causes you sorrow
and you miss because you remember
and you remember well what you feel
You're a star and you'll never die
you'll only change, you'll grow
and weaken in the cosmic rhythms
that you know before you exist
that you'll share all you have
and be together and alone
in leisure you take in each step
every adventure is a smart move
and you can see more than silhouettes
when all is dark, eyeshine gleams
You're a fish and your life is a dream
nothing but a dream as you swim
in between the oars of heaven's ships
and you feel happy with others
and you swim and sink and breathe water
You're an insect and you know community
you know your place and you like it
you have every friend you need
and you die inconsequentially at a hand
that carries a vast history
You're a man and you know grief
the sorrow that separates you from them
is that you know that what separates you
causes you sorrow
and you miss because you remember
and you remember well what you feel
You're a star and you'll never die
you'll only change, you'll grow
and weaken in the cosmic rhythms
that you know before you exist
that you'll share all you have
and be together and alone
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Transience
Like clockwork, every piece moved the other
In time, the rhythms of logic emerge from repetition
This flowing transience that is hidden in change
Often peers through and renders the optimist helpless
In time, the rhythms of logic emerge from repetition
Once detected, disarmed but for a smile, a specter
Often peers through and renders the optimist helpless
For in all this, it is the infallibility of choice that remains
Once detected, disarmed but for a smile, a specter
Swings back and forth a steady pendulum
For in all this, it is the infallibility of choice that remains
And clearing all doubt of predisposition
Swings back and forth a steady pendulum
This flowing transience that is hidden in change
And clearing all doubt of predisposition
Like clockwork, every piece moved the other
Sunday, March 18, 2012
I've Come For You
this sliver of sky peering through ash clouds
this radiant hallway connecting the kingdoms
it's a beaming liaison, an opened portal
quickly closing before a rushing wind
breaking the blizzard in a proud golden flare
a razor sharp shadow cast on the seabed
and that gray somber wave in a wild crashing sweep
is roused to deep blue, thick in this halo
the arms leave the giant and float through the dark
rushing to meet the green and blue baby
its frozen soft sheets brace for embrace
and their ghost leaves a trail of bright echoes
pushing through the air, screaming past the breeze
this ray, this heavy drop of heaven come fast
piercing the winter, shattering crystal stars
the road is paved for the chariot of flames
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
The Two
What is this bomb ticking in my hands?
Why is a heart beating, bleeding in my hands?
It’s counting beats down to an explosion
Emptying itself, filling my room, flooding my room
The heart’s gushing, the blood splashes against me
Horror and then more as I realize
It’s my heart
Finally the flow dwindles and the final beat comes
And the explosion awakens me
In bed, in darkness, grasping at my chest, gasping
Calming down, as I feel the beats within my core
Lying down, letting the breaths sync up to the song
Don’t be afraid
And now I close my eyes
My brain expands, the wrinkles separate and stretch
And become walls and a maze. The mouse sets off
Systematic, I proceed until I hit a wall
Why was my heart a bomb?
I turn right and proceed
Why wouldn’t I let go?
I hit a wall again, a dead end
No, I can feel an answer on the other side
A sonorous rumble
The wall is warm and soft
Will it hurt to go through it?
I look down and my hand is now a blade
Teeth clenched, brow knit, I thrust my hand through the wall
Like a breaking dam, I’m awash in red, choking
And then the blood subsides
The gray walls are now half red
I walk through once the shock, too, subsides
I feel lighter as I walk into the hidden room
And then heavier as I realize my heart is missing
Another dream?
But there it is, on the floor in the middle of the room
I hesitate for a moment and then pick it up
It’s empty. It’s not beating. It already went off.
One of me is holding a dead heart, and the other stares
More questions fill the room in a blinding noise
I approach myself and before I even formulate the question
I answer “I have no answers
But that’s not your heart”
In my bloody hands there is a book
The blood on my hands, on the book’s cover fades into it
I open it and the letters form a chain
The chain crawls out from the book and wraps itself around
my hands
My arms, my neck, my chest and then my whole body
The book has vanished and the words ignite
My skin in flames, words searing every inch of me
Eventually the pain dies down, the flames still there
But cool and white instead of ink black
I see myself, enveloped in white fire
My legs are still blood-soaked
I see my face covered in glowing letters
My hands are still shaking from the bomb
Intact but dripping from the heart
“I’ve done a poor job”
“We all make mistakes”
“I’m going to stay”
“I know. It’s the only choice”
“what do you make of the heart?”
“I would say it’s what you want
But as it empties you realize
The ends are going to come regardless
So you hold it and wait
And see it die without knowing
That in dying, you regain it”
Sunday, February 5, 2012
The Hallways Stretch Forever
two mirrors and within them one will
one curve and two angles, singularly
fears and foci: future abstracted
the ends meet, grasp, tighten and wait
an overflow, forming pools
two mirrors face to face: infinitely
and inside is a fractured spark
deeper in, the drums of peace
in an instant the spark arches
glowing, the soul smooths the pools out
two mirrors: the ring of time bounces
at once, eternity is deconstructed
the drums now beating
rhythm, in a to and fro metronome
is the spark transcending thought
two mirrors find harmony in unison
the spark now a beam at speed
its bounce a beat outside of time
two mirrors opening to an end
and the end expanding ever closer
faster, the drums now scream
two mirrors in a riot flood
a killing pulse, once, twice deceived
the whirring beam is banished
two mirrors clearly, desperately dark
breaking past the instant's wall
the line is taut, gravity strung anew
and the moment is complete in the touch
one curve and two angles, singularly
fears and foci: future abstracted
the ends meet, grasp, tighten and wait
an overflow, forming pools
two mirrors face to face: infinitely
and inside is a fractured spark
deeper in, the drums of peace
in an instant the spark arches
glowing, the soul smooths the pools out
two mirrors: the ring of time bounces
at once, eternity is deconstructed
the drums now beating
rhythm, in a to and fro metronome
is the spark transcending thought
two mirrors find harmony in unison
the spark now a beam at speed
its bounce a beat outside of time
two mirrors opening to an end
and the end expanding ever closer
faster, the drums now scream
two mirrors in a riot flood
a killing pulse, once, twice deceived
the whirring beam is banished
two mirrors clearly, desperately dark
breaking past the instant's wall
the line is taut, gravity strung anew
and the moment is complete in the touch
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
A Study: Is Not
Nothing is quite as brain-emptying as a blank page, an empty space begging to be filled all the while siphoning every inkling of a thought that may be escaping your mind. The black hole, it is thought, produces a great amount of light but so strong is its power of attraction that none of it escapes. The white void, the plain canvas, holds in its vast lands the rich earth needed for the fruit of knowledge. The black ink, the painted pixel, is the sowing of every image as it is placed rightly, neatly on. This meeting of the poles, this encounter of opposites, the linking of the line that makes a loop and every instant of this traversal: what stripe, what checker, what shadow that light in breaking makes again. Every color divided, united is both and neither in contradictory equality and every oxymoron takes place on this black and white. The very void that void created in its absence found itself.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
party music
blue star dance quick
lose love sing stop
pause now think drop
feel shake spin slick
take shape twin fates
light smoke loud sound
go fast trade sides
dip jump step turn
bounce leap flip flop
green beam freeze frame
flash quake boom shock
wave pound crash rock
slow now low ground
look swift sense shift
rise twist bend break
sweat drink smile stay
lose love sing stop
pause now think drop
feel shake spin slick
take shape twin fates
light smoke loud sound
go fast trade sides
dip jump step turn
bounce leap flip flop
green beam freeze frame
flash quake boom shock
wave pound crash rock
slow now low ground
look swift sense shift
rise twist bend break
sweat drink smile stay
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